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A Day in the Life of Timothy Stone
hey doggie - good morning - good morning doggie - twelve minutes to janice i gotta brush my teeth i hope they have her in a bathing suit today they always have diane in the bathing suit - i dont know why - janice probably doesnt do that stuff it probably gets cold or exploitive or something - i dont understand that exploitation stuff i mean they are getting something out of it - they get money they get power they get fame and all i get is the pleasure of looking at her for five seconds and then the pain of knowing i can never have her like julie marilyn monroe and all that stuff except with more respect except you probably wouldnt even get it - she would deserve it but they wouldnt give it to her - they never give it to you - i remembered her so well she is the most beautiful girl ever divine providence on earth that first day when she sat down next to me in the auditorium darby laughing the go between which is definitely the worst book i have ever read or tried to read or been told to read i dont think i even read the cliff notes - even - julie christie is hot in darling not in heaven can wait - i should have played miss celie right there and said im black im ugly im slow i caint draw and i caint sing but ise here and im gonna make the best of what i is and she gonna play miss shug and say well all right cuz if i had been with julie all this time damn i should give old julie a call i sound like holden caufield i should give old jane a call and we could have a couple of drinks and i dont have to be home until wednesday - i wish it was then and im that person and we are those people and the world is that place with that past present future and all of those things
i wonder what jane was wearing that red outfit - god i love her - i should call julie anyway - hello is julie there - this is she - hey this is tim - hows it going - i havent seen you in so long - i know - ive missed you - thanks - me too - so hows the north country - all right - how are you doing - fine - well you know it seems like we have always been the only ones in town at the end of these vacations and i thought i would give you a call and maybe we could go out somewhere together you know - that would be great “tim”
what
“you want some breakfast”
no
“sure”
yeah - some pancakes would be good nah i dont want all i will just get something when i come down maybe some chili or some tuna fish or something i should cook some chicken - anyway that would be so cool - is julie there - speaking - hey its tim - tim who - would she say that or would she know who it was she would probably know who it was nah she wouldnt know if she had a friend named tim at school or something that would suck if i called her and said hey its tim and she said tim who - o yeah tim stone - yeah the guy thats been in love with you for seven years - i havent seen you in so long - what have you been up to - same old thing different place that sounds so stupid i would say not much or something - what about you - not much - i thought maybe we could go out somewhere or something - that would be great - is tonight good - tonights fine tonights terrific tonight is excellent unsurmountable and superciliously sweet tonight is impossible - so what time should i pick you up - ten would be good - or do you want to drive - no thats all right - i just didnt know if you have become one of those new liberal women who wear black and drink coffee and smoke cigarettes and sometimes shave their legs and all they talk about is the c i a and abortion and rape that would suck - those people calling themselves liberals are so closeminded about everything that they are really conservative trying to tell everybody what words to use jumping in my freedom of speech freedom of architecture all that stuff about phallic symbols pretty soon they are gonna force us to build downward - dig out these great big oval trenches and stick some offices in there - plant some bushes around the perimeter but sheez not a liberated woman - she is a liberated woman but not a pseudolesbian - sheez one of those unfeminist feminists like annie who just want to be left alone - annie is really cool about stuff like that even though she did want to go out into the yuppy business world for some stupid reason i dont know why she didnt want to teach but you would be such a good teacher - thats such a horrible thing to say - why is it a horrible thing to say - its chauvinistic - thinking that a woman should be a teacher - a woman should be a woman - whats that supposed to mean - i dont know - it means that some women would make better teachers than they would stock brokers and some women would make better stock brokers but those women are probably just stupid bitches anyway who dont know shit about people - just forget it
god i hate that when you wont let things get as hot as they can be just cut off that emotion all that energy - i dont want to fight about it - what could be better than a good fight - a lot of things - like what - a good picnic - ill do anything with you dont get me wrong im just a little stymied about a picnic - you got ants - ants get in the food - you got to eat on the ground - its better in front of the tv - ill do anything with you dont get me wrong - im just a little stymied about a picnic
yeah julies not one of those feminists - she doesnt want to paint everything red and hang pictures of naked women all over throw tampons and hardboiled eggs well damn them eggs and all the eggs there ever was - what was i thinking
okay - ill see you - i cant wait - hey - hey - how have you been - fine - how come youre not off in the bahamas or someplace - i just wanted to come home and spend some time with my family - thats nice - how are your sisters - theyre doing well - thats good - i think im going off to europe for a month this summer with some of my friends from school and maybe jennifer and steph might come so anyway i thought that i am going to be with them enough you know so i thought i just needed a break from all the hassle and stuff so now you know what a nerd i really am - a nerd - you are the most beautiful girl i have ever seen woman now its woman you are the most beautiful woman i have ever seen - thanks - you dont believe me - look i know that everyone is talking about how ive gained all this weight and how i look like shit - come on youre beautiful - whatever - she would never say that i would hope god i hate it when people dont look at the whole of a person and all they talk about is what parts are nice and what parts are ugly pieces parts like chicken mcnuggets god that pisses me off - oh she has a great rack - thats great what are you gonna do you gonna chop off her rack and marry it - jesus - you look at the woman and she is ugly or she is beautiful - thats a fine ass - well you can marry an ass but i want the whole woman - im not talking about the woman youre gonna marry im just talking about some chick - oh well then its okay
i want to marry an aura thats the most important thing the aura - do you believe in auras - sure - you do - not that there is an area around people but that you can know things about people feel things about people before you actually know them - or the area not really around them but the energy they emit - or the area not surrounding them but that - they consume - it has to do with motion - its like the difference between a static woman or a woman in motion - a woman is completely different in motion - the motion of her - thats the aura - god who cares if she is fat its only compared to the fact that she was perfect before besides it doesnt even matter there are a lot of girls who are skinny ugly girls and girls that are pretty and skinny but theyre not sexy theres nothing sexy about them you have to have a little weight to be sexy you have to have some meat on you you have to have some curves i mean look - if people are saying stuff like that its because those people looked at you but they never really looked at you - i mean its you that always made you so beautiful - me - yeah you - you were never afraid - afraid 9:57 three minutes to janice - what
oh yeah exactly i mean other girls were just as pretty - i mean i thought gayle was and jennifer and charmaine - but they were afraid and you never were - you were never afraid - well gayle wasnt afraid thats not fair gayle was really cool - not cool - special - gayle was really special and courageous and you know she would just be sitting and knitting and you would think she was thinking about something stupid off quiet not paying attention and then she would jump in there with this little sarcastic twang and really let you have it - i loved it when she got scott - yeah me too - california - what was i saying
you were never afraid - you were never afraid of talking to the wrong person or liking the wrong person or being seen with the wrong person or wearing the wrong clothes or the right ones - or the right ones because feeling that you always have to wear tie dyes and cutoff jeans is no more liberated than the person who always wears duckheads and an oxford anyway she wasnt you werent afraid of being yourself of saying what you wanted i mean like when we were doing the yearbook stuff at janes house and you and i were just going off and everyone else was trying to be prudent i mean that is the quintessential charmaine sitting in a chair and trying to be prudent and then jennifer is the other side who wasnt ever prudent but thats because she was always trying to turn somebody on - but you were just being - like you came into school as susans sister i mean for two years you have been the little sister of susan venus aphrodite i mean there was something so godlike and classical about her beauty - she
there are some people who are beautiful and you call them a goddess but theyre not really a goddess in the way that you would envision a goddess - its just a form of compliment - but susan lynn was a goddess in the true sense of the word that she resembled aphrodite i mean literally - and we had so many visions of her unmolested and virgin in perfect beauty and now thats all gone
